Have you ever done anything that you regret? I do it all the time. I think my greatest flaw as a man is that I let my emotions dictate my actions. As I’ve gotten older you would have thought that it would have gotten better, but it hasn’t. When people fire off at me, I usually remain calm but when they finally strike that nerve, I become an immature man with asinine behavior.
I’m sure you’re asking, “How can you know this and not fix it?” That’s the thing. 85% of the time I am just fine. Someone can come for me or do something wack and I will just simply turn and ask them “Who hurt you?” But when my mind is idle and I start thinking about a lot of negative things, I become my own worst enemy. Honestly, by the time I figure out what I’m mad about and how I should really deal with it, the damage has already been done in most cases.
The best thing for me is that I know I need space from time to time. I’m a runner because of that. I know that I’m hot headed so I avoid confrontation until I am ready to address it. Usually when I’m ready to address it, enough time has passed that I can think rationally. The problem is that for me the problem is diffusing and for the other person its escalating.
As I continue to grow as a man, I’ve accepted who I am but I will continue to work on being better. Nobody deserves to be snapped at or treated unfairly so I know it’s something that needs to be addressed. So if I’ve ever come at you the wrong way, chances are by now I’ve apologized. If I haven’t, then know that your apology is on deck.