Regret, Frustration, and Owning It

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Have you ever done anything that you regret? I do it all the time. I think my greatest flaw as a man is that I let my emotions dictate my actions. As I’ve gotten older you would have thought that it would have gotten better, but it hasn’t. When people fire off at me, I usually remain calm but when they finally strike that nerve, I become an immature man with asinine behavior. 

I’m sure you’re asking, “How can you know this and not fix it?” That’s the thing. 85% of the time I am just fine. Someone can come for me or do something wack and I will just simply turn and ask them “Who hurt you?” But when my mind is idle and I start thinking about a lot of negative things, I become my own worst enemy. Honestly, by the time I figure out what I’m mad about and how I should really deal with it, the damage has already been done in most cases.

The best thing for me is that I know I need space from time to time. I’m a runner because of that. I know that I’m hot headed so I avoid confrontation until I am ready to address it. Usually when I’m ready to address it, enough time has passed that I can think rationally. The problem is that for me the problem is diffusing and for the other person its escalating.

As I continue to grow as a man, I’ve accepted who I am but I will continue to work on being better. Nobody deserves to be snapped at or treated unfairly so I know it’s something that needs to be addressed. So if I’ve ever come at you the wrong way, chances are by now I’ve apologized. If I haven’t, then know that your apology is on deck.

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2 thoughts on “Regret, Frustration, and Owning It

  1. Tareau Barron February 12, 2017 / 1:00 am

    I can relate. Therapy has helped me out tremendously with my anger. Right now I’m using an RPG (Role playing game) tactic. When a confrontation comes up I try and react as a video game. How do I respond? 1. Diplomatic. 2. Anger. 3. Passive Aggressive. 4. No response. It sounds silly but I’d rather be silly than be in jail.

    • Joe Simmons February 12, 2017 / 8:57 am

      Good point. I’ll keep that in mind.

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