Being Yourself In A World That Wants You To Be Someone Else

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It’s been a minute since I’ve written anything for the blog. Time commitments, and a daughter that requires a lot more of my time has changed the game a little but I’m back on it and I’m going to try and post a few days a week again.

Today I want to rant. The state of America is so opinionated. You know when you have an opinion and another person has an opinion, y’all are basically just two people with opinions… which is cool. It only becomes a problem when people start to believe an opinion is fact when it is not.

The reality is that most of us are not discussing science or research, we’re usually just giving out opinions. No matter how ridiculous you believe another person’s opinion is, it doesn’t mean that your opinion is better… it’s just your opinion. Continue reading


Finding The American Dream


What is the American Dream? Why can’t we achieve it? Every day we wake up and 80% of the people in America dread going to work. We work our whole lives to position ourselves to do what it is that we want to do and yet 80% of us are still unsatisfied with working the hours we have too.

I went to college for 4 years and got a degree in political science. I was sure I wanted to be a lawyer. It would have probably been a great move right out of college but my experiment at professional football failed miserably and by the time I returned to school things had changed for me. Continue reading



Sometimes in life, all you want to do is be appreciated. Whether it’s work, in a relationship, or just among friends you want to be appreciated for your contributions to the situation or group. I’m old school and I make sure that I take care of the people who mean a lot to me.

It’s really hard for expectations to be met all of the time. People are so different that we often think that people think like we do. We very rarely step back and look at what a person is going through or why they made the choices they made and we’re usually pretty quick to judge them based on what we see without looking at the circumstances.

People get spoiled by patterns and when things drift off the norm we wonder if we’re the reason things went the way they did or we’re quick to point out Continue reading


Keeping The Things That Matter


Have you ever had something that you wanted more than anything, then you got it and didn’t know how to keep it? Happens to me quite a bit. Not sure how or why I can’t get it right but for some reason it always appears to happen to me. It can be something or someone and I always and I mean always find a way to lose it.

Sometimes I wonder if it’s meant for me to have things I desire. Even when I take care of the things I cherish the most, they always find a way to disappear or become unusable. Why this happens is beyond me but it always appears to be the case. From this point forward, I will hold on a little tighter, give things more care, and appreciate the value of the things I want to keep.

Finding what you want is hard and keeping it is even harder. This past weekend I had a discussion with a friend. We talked about value and self worth. The main focus was that sometimes the things we value most don’t add value to our lives. When things we find things that add value to our lives we need to preserve them and when they don’t add value, we need to let them go or get what we can for them.  Continue reading


A Struggle That I Am Okay With

How many of you are near the age of thirty and you still aren’t sure if you are doing what you want to do in life. I pride myself on being a self explorer and every venture in my life leads me to another decision on whether I am doing the things in life that I want to be doing.

I entered the working world pretty young as growing up in a single parent home usually requires. I have held down many jobs and I can clearly say that some people in life work harder for their money than you could ever imagine.

Every day you ask yourself, how much more I want to do before I settle on something that I can do for the rest of my life. When I try to quantify this with reasoning I usually end up asking myself am I happy with what I do.

My first job was as a landscape engineer (a fancy way of saying grass sewer) for a house building company when I was twelve years old. All I did was walk behind a tractor and drop seeds. To me it was easy money but for most it was too hot to do and they didn’t want anything to do with it. I was making ten dollars an hour so it was never to hot for me to do. It was either that or work in the tobacco fields with family and friends for four dollars an hour less. That was a no brainer to me.

I knew at an early age that manual labor wasn’t for me. The summer before my freshman year of college I worked in a factory with my sister. She had been with the company for nearly fifteen years and got me a pretty good job with the company. The people there loved me. They loved their job and it was one big happy place. Honestly the only real down side of the place was me working there. I knew I couldn’t go manual labor my whole life so it just wasn’t going to work for me. When I went to college, I vowed never to return to that type of job again. So far I have been able to hold up my end of that deal.

After college, professional sports came a calling and I gave it a shot. I had many opportunities but I couldn’t stick anywhere I went due to injury or guys were just more experienced and often times just better than me. I later returned to my college town to find a gig in my field and to my surprise there wasn’t a lot of action. I even took a job at a retail store in the mall because I refused to go back home and work in that factory.

Less than half a year passed and I decided to re enroll in school and get a higher degree. When that happened I also accepted a job as an assistant college football coach at my alma mater. I worked hard at my craft often way into the night as I was reenergized to be around the sport that I loved with such passion. Although I was doing the work I wanted to do I was even more happy to be getting an advanced degree in education. It might seem simple but teaching was something that I had dreamed I would be doing one day.

After seven years as a coach I grew tired of the hours and decided that I would put that education degree to the test. I found a job teaching middle school children and it seemed like that was the future for me. The more I taught them, the more I realized that I needed a stronger challenge so after two years I moved on to the high school level and began working on a PhD in History.

I have been doing the teaching thing for a while now.. Lot’s of years in the game. However now I feel like there is another path that I should be traveling. I do part time work as a television host. I also do sports commentary and write for several well organized sports blogs. Not that either of those should be a full time job, but I feel like I have a lot to offer and that I am spinning my wheels in my current profession.

I feel like I have done all I can do in the field of education. However the job situation that is out there isn’t conducive to just walking away from a steady job and hop on board something that isn’t guaranteed.

Day after day I go to a job that used to complete me but it has a few missing pieces that I need to feel adequate. The kids are the brightest part of my day as they are sponges who absorb so much and often times they surprise me with their thirst for knowledge. However completing my feelings seems to be the factor that needs to be addressed. Maybe that is why I do the things I do on the side. Maybe they are there to make me feel better about my situation as a whole.

I thank God for all that I have been given and embrace this struggle within myself that I am personally okay with. If I should spend the rest of my life as an educator I am okay with that. Its rewarding and I am giving all of myself to the future. In fact maybe it is a Struggle That I Am Okay With.